There is no guarantee of a job, or your dream life; that once this is all complete I may still be Phoebe, living the same regular life i had before except just with a degree this time. Now I completely understand to many this may sound weak or pathetic, but to me, it is beyond terrifying and it is a feeling I am sadly going to have to live with for another four years.
I'm not entirely sure if my feelings are a common attitude amongst other students, as I have often beaten them down and reminded myself that these feelings are only temporary. Nothing is permanent, set in stone so to speak. So instead, I let them simmer, sometimes I let them consume my body and brain or sometimes I get on with it. But this is healthy I convince myself, and it is! It's all a part of the experience, of growing up, learning to deal with feelings in a mature and reasonable manner.
As, in reality you cannot dwell and overly worry about these things can you? What will be, will be, and that's the beauty of it. I do not know what my future exactly holds, and neither do you. Do not set your sights and ambitions low in fear of rejection, or due to self-doubt. Everything is possible if you believe it is! "Fear is the mind-killer" said Frank Herbert, and I whole heartedly agree.
You have one life. Live it; take the risks, say yes to everything and anything, be open to new opportunities, do not let your insecurities get in the way, but most importantly do not have any regrets - because how beautiful will it be, to look back and think I took genuine advantage of being blessed.
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